Thirty Nine Journal

[thirtynine]

WHO I AM AND WHY I AM HERE...

So here I am... after 10 years being absent from the game, I am back.  I am not here to brag, or show off in any ways, or even worse being self-pitty.  I am here to simply keep a journey and keep a commitment to myself to work on my game each and everyday.  I am Thirty-Nine, because I am thirty nine years old.  I am pretty sick of seeing women walking down with other guys, and wonders when will ever get a girlfriend, or being take advantage of.  With this being said, let me talk about myself.  From 2006 to 2010, I used to game everyday, I love every moment of it.  Back then, it was easy, I was fit and just graduated from university with lots of time on my end.  Then careers and real life kicked in, I ended up in an accounting career with long hours, gained weight, loss a lot of my party hungry friends.  I deeply regretted taking this path, but that is the past.  I briefly got back to the game after Mystery came back to  Toronto and we hang  out.

I am proud that I am currently a banker, from 2016 to present, I have a popular YouTube travel channel, a runway director for the New York Fashion Week, as well has substantial real estate and two fancy under my name, in short I no longer worries about money.

What I am worried about is my parent are getting older and older, as a Asian, I am obligated to follow their wishes to settled down and start a family with a decent women.  Oh yes, I also on the same page with them on this one.  Those days of me trying to sleep with every women on the planet is over.  I think I got a lot to offer, so I have to take on myself to take the first steps to make things happen.  I think with this post, it is one of my first step other than going out today and met a Ukrainian girl.

I am have to honest, honest with my shortcoming... so I am going to share what I am strength and weakness.

Strength and Success:
- I graduated from top business school in Canada, as well a CPA
- Own my home, multiple rental unit
- Has a great career in a major bank with good income
- I am main host for one of the travel show on Prime Video
- I am one of the director and producer for the New York Fashion Week.
- I am also own my car (2x)
- Debt free

Weakness and Shortcoming:
- Overweight, currently 190 lb (but I am working out everyday, building muscle and losing some weight)
- Bad eating habit, often eat  just before midnight
- Terrible sleep pattern, I often have to used cannabis to fall asleep
- No social circle, one of the toughest
- Not able to keep dates, I often go date and get ghosted, often felt taken advantage of.
- I got thousands of excuse not wanting to go out.

Now, here is some of short-medium term goals and actions needed:
- Working out, eating well.  Currently, I am doing around of P90X, it's a great exercise, never missed a workout since I start a month ago.  Diet is something I needed to work on.  Currently, already cutting out carbs.  Tough but necessary, not to mention  I needed to start keeping track of my daily calories intake.
- It's truly funny that I am runway director for major fashion shows in Toronto and New York and yet, I got no fashion sense.  Start need to go out more and pay attention how other guys dresses with women.
- Start a dating program or course, do all exercise and keep a journey right here.  So if you know any great program, let me know.  Sorry guys, Mystery is not in Toronto and I simply can not drop everything and hang out with him all over the world.  But we are a good friends.
- Find a wingman to motivate each other, be committed to go out at least four nights  a  week, 2 day game
- Start building a social circle, this is going to be tough, my social skills is not the greatest, but at least I am honest and ready to learn and to start somewhere.

End result, long-term goals: this is simple, find the partner that I will able to spend the rest of my life with and start a family.

So, I guess this is my journal entry number one... I  am so glad to find this forum, I also wishes to see all my other brothers success and to learn from, to also motivates and inspires other at the same time.  This is going to be amazing journey ahead.

[thirtynine]

Today, as usually as soon as the work are done at 5 pm, I went home take a 30 minutes rest before a hour long weight training. Starting to show result, so happy about it. I also start trying out my new clothings brought over the weekend. I didn't went out alone, yesterday I got one of my former bank co-worker, which I call B1, a 28 year old virgin with MBA to hit the street with me today. He agreed. Oh boy, he brought a big ass camera and told me, he want to take photos of girls and offer to send it to them after getting their contact. The problem, he didn't approach, frustrating with lots of excuse. I decided to not waste time, first set, sitting waiting for Toronto ferry was a set of two Ukrainian girls, I chatted with them by showing my travel show featuring their country and hoping they will win. Good start, next a set of Indian girls with their guys, I asked them for schedule for next ferry, we join them on the ship since I didn't wanted to wait given sun are going down. Once getting to the island, he still didn't approached and focus on playing around with his camera. This makes me mad and makes me want to do my own things. I told him, you got to start somewhere, I don't want him to his camera next if he want to sarge with me. It was dark getting from one end of the island to other side, no girls. Once we started waiting for the ferry back to mainland, there was long line up, I walked up to a cute Asian girls who is newly wed, and told her if my friend can take some photos of her, because is so pretty. I did it because I want to show him that women don't bite. She agreed, few poses... moved to another set on the line up. Spoken to a group of Air Indian flight attendance. In the end, I am glad I went out... even though I wish my friend could do more, I feel like he kind of held me back. So, I won't invite him anymore to sarge unless he ask me, only if he agreed to cut the camera gimmick out. Tomorrow will another day... one step forward!

[JackZero]

Jul 6, 2023 5:08:08 GMT thirtynine said:

Today, as usually as soon as the work are done at 5 pm, I went home take a 30 minutes rest before a hour long weight training. Starting to show result, so happy about it. I also start trying out my new clothings brought over the weekend. I didn't went out alone, yesterday I got one of my former bank co-worker, which I call B1, a 28 year old virgin with MBA to hit the street with me today. He agreed. Oh boy, he brought a big ass camera and told me, he want to take photos of girls and offer to send it to them after getting their contact. The problem, he didn't approach, frustrating with lots of excuse. I decided to not waste time, first set, sitting waiting for Toronto ferry was a set of two Ukrainian girls, I chatted with them by showing my travel show featuring their country and hoping they will win. Good start, next a set of Indian girls with their guys, I asked them for schedule for next ferry, we join them on the ship since I didn't wanted to wait given sun are going down. Once getting to the island, he still didn't approached and focus on playing around with his camera. This makes me mad and makes me want to do my own things. I told him, you got to start somewhere, I don't want him to his camera next if he want to sarge with me. It was dark getting from one end of the island to other side, no girls. Once we started waiting for the ferry back to mainland, there was long line up, I walked up to a cute Asian girls who is newly wed, and told her if my friend can take some photos of her, because is so pretty. I did it because I want to show him that women don't bite. She agreed, few poses... moved to another set on the line up. Spoken to a group of Air Indian flight attendance. In the end, I am glad I went out... even though I wish my friend could do more, I feel like he kind of held me back. So, I won't invite him anymore to sarge unless he ask me, only if he agreed to cut the camera gimmick out. Tomorrow will another day... one step forward!

What was your personal goal here?  I like that you approached and were willing to show B1 that they don't bite, but what were the results of your approaches?  Did you get contact info from the girls?  Did you set anything up for a meetup?  I ask these questions because you should have a goal, IMO.  To me, at the very least, the goal should get a girl to want to meet up with you at some point.  It seems that you are a well rounded guy and if you made the goal to meet a girl, get her contact information, and have her agree to going out with you within 24 hours (not meaning the actual date within 24 hours).  With your background, you'd have a hard time coming up empty handed if that was your personal goal.

[thirtynine]

Jul 7, 2023 2:55:54 GMT JackZero said:

Jul 6, 2023 5:08:08 GMT thirtynine said:

Thanks for the feedback.  My goal here is a keep a journal of my progress and also keep a feedback, share ideas.  I know there is a lot of things I needed to work on.  In addition, perhaps finding a wingman to go out with here in Toronto. Sadly, I didn't setup any meeting for my first outing with B1, but when I go out tonight, I'll have a habit not getting down their contact and setup something within 24 hours.  No excuse, this is something I'll be working on next outing tonight.  I guess, I'll work on approach, chat, getting contact and follow up for this weekend.

[thirtynine]

Alright, let's say I am pretty proud of what I did tonight... no, I didn't approach, well somewhat or getting phone number. Let me explained... As a single guy in a large city like Toronto, with poor social circle. I hated weekend, I often spend time alone watching hours of YouTube or editing my own YouTube videos. Tonight was different, after a hour and half of P90X workout, I work out everyday... no excuse! I did my first warmed up, I called one of the girls I knew from nine years that I picked up when she was only 17 years old. We chat about her future plans, her relationship, etc. Then, it was time to head out... ALONE! Something that I always avoid by giving myself hundreds of excuses in the past.

I am always a big fan of Ukrainian girls, oh yes, I met a lot of them during my trip to Poland. When I was there, I accidentally dated a 16 year old, turned 17 year old in this past April. I looked up for a Ukrainian pub, a 10 km away. When I was arrived, there was live music, place is very alive. Lot of very beautiful Ukrainian girls, I assume they are mostly refugees.

I am believe in supporting Ukrainian and ended up ordering a drink, I had a sit and simply enjoy the music. I smile through the 30 minutes when I was there and tried to make eye contact, but no response. It's okay, this is my first night. I simply wanted to get use to this type of environment. After my drink, I hit the washroom and drove back to downtown... but I didn't ended heading home, I took a long detour to see what else is happening for my future reference. I passed by the Queen Street West, up to Bloor Street and down towards Yonge Street. Despite Toronto being such a hard place to meet women, I am also blessed to have home base here, harder makes me stronger... after a lot of master pickup artist got their success here.



It is about 12:30 am, I parked my car at home, but still determined to stay out until at least 1 am. I was lucky that there is a pub downstairs my condo. I went in and looked around, there was live music, but few sets to open. I let myself go easy today... by setting my goal is staying for at least 30 minutes and getting comfortable with the environment. I ended order today's special, Fish and Chips and Beer. I stayed way past my 30 minutes, about 45 minutes to be exact outside patio. I went inside let the cute waitress Katie that I like to get the bill. She was very friendly, no surprise there...

I told her that I appreciate she working this late and I can get fed so I won't need to be hungry heading to bed. I hope everyone tip given times are tough, she smiled and said she hope too. I told her, they should since we need to help each other. I DHV myself by telling her that I haven't raise my rent in 3 years given how most of my tenant is struggling.

She told me that she just started working at the pub a month ago, I asked her what her future plan. She has degree in international development, but now planning to go back to school in the fall. I told her she should consider volunteering, there are opportunity with Canadian government foreign aid agencies like CIDA. Some of my travel show are sponsored by them, they wanted me to go developing countries and help promote tourism, but most of the money are earned by the National Geographic, another DHV. She look surprised when I show some of my episode, so I am not bullshitting. I told her that if she needed guidance, I work across the street Monday to Friday at the bank branch, 30 seconds walk from the pub.

So, this is my progress for today... I worked out sucking it up and forcing myself to stay in pub/bar environment regardless how uncomfortable I am, as well smile and make eye contact.

I also learned no more shorts... in other words, up my fashion a bit!

My journey continues... lots of day activities in the city, I am ready for around of day game. Next up... telephone close.

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[thirtynine]

On Saturday, I went out early in the afternoon, visited another Ukrainian restaurant, pretty dead. After the meal, I drove over to Yorkdale Mall. Chat up one of the bank employees with a Turkish background. I ended up going home because of the runway models wants to come over to discuss about her modelling careers, she came with a friend, I absolutely no interest in her and just want to get it over with. After the meeting, I had massive headache that lasted until Sunday. I couldn't stand not going, on Sunday noon, I went out to buy some accessories to peacock, picked up a necklace. Went back home to rest again, the good news by Monday morning the headache was gone, did a early morning exercise, weights and abs, then work.

After work, took a quick nap... one of my goals is going out and building social circle, so I ended going to do golf crash course at the waterfront, $20. 20 minutes bike ride to burn some calories. I was so surprised how is packed, the pubs there and as well the beach volleyball nets. I met my instructor and told her that I used to have fashion model girlfriend who is into golfing, I needed to improve my game. There was another Asian dude Jimmy, both of us newbie. It was fun... The instructor what is my plan for golfing, I told him that if I became good enough, I might do some golfing for my travel show in the future. He was amazed about my job as television, put on my show on my big screen. The reaction in the room was really cool. Soon, I met a fellow Korean golfer, lawyer, who I exchanged Instagram info. So, in short, I am getting habit of getting people contact. However, she was boyfriend that came with her... but no big deal, my objective for tonight is:

1. Not staying home
2. Build a social circle
3. Find interesting hobbies

All done... I took a long way home hoping to approach more sets. There is no shortage of girls, but here is issue... It seems like I am not as productive without a sarge buddy, so I guess I have to suck it up and also work on doing solo sarging if I can't find a buddy, I am afraid B1 is simply not right for me.

There is a cute Turkish messaged me lately, asking me to hang out... pretty cool, she actually came over couples of times, but we didn't do anything. She is asking now if I can free in the morning on Saturday before her work or meet up for coffee. I told her I am going to biking, I rather we take time next week and I can pick her up after work and we can take our time to eat something healthy home cooked meal. So, I am going to see if I can pull this off next week.

Tomorrow will be another day... btw, I have reading Revelation as refresher to Mystery Method, written in 2008... but honestly, info still a gold, I have reading it during work just to be more productive.

It's almost 11 am, I feel like I still got some energy, some I am going to do some workout while watching some more YouTube videos before heading the sack. Good night world... see you all tomorrow!

[thirtynine]

I didn't post yesterday because I got seriously knocked right after came home... fun night! First Tuesday night, I had to pick up some stuff from a dollar store. I overheard one of the girls walked by my isle on the phone "so you want me to quit my job?", I look at her and say "I totally support you, let's enjoy our lives". She smiles, but I want back to looking for what I needed to pick up since the store is closing in two minutes. On the lineup, she stood behind me, I asked her "so did you quit? I will totally support your move?". She told me that she was a nurse, sometimes she had to work during the weekend, her mother is accusing her of not wanting to see them and not coming to the family BBQ. I told her, my parent is giving me lots of pressure, but for different reason, I keep reminded of that I owed them a grandchild. Anyways, it was my turn to check out, I wish her a good night. Good warm up... but I should have get her contact and follow up.

After that I went to what suppose to be comedy night at pub. I entered, my goodness it was cannabis sample festival. All the companies there were handling out drinks, snacks and even mac and cheeses, all free. I took this opportunity to hit on some of the staff working at the sampling booth that I am host of television show and want to perhaps do a segment on cannabis industry in Canada. I ended up getting couples of contact... just to start closing, getting comfortable asking people for their contacts. I was super high after all these samples, I can barely talk, zoned out. I know it was time to go home since I got work tomorrow. I simply got knocked out!



Fast forward Wednesday, during work, I got a boring ass week long course for the bank I am working for. I took the opportunity to continue to read Revelations... I am almost half way into the book, Couples of the aspects I needed to work on is 1. buy the items like accessories to peacock, start learning different stages of Mystery Method, as well some Ross Jeffries good lines. So I think I'll be learning both school of seduction. During lunch, another round of workout... no excuse there.

Now, after work, I visit few second hand shop to look for accessories, although I didn't find anything I like, I managed to find a chain for the necklace I brought over the weekend. It looks pretty cool, but I needed more, in particular bracelets. Wednesday night is also language practice night at one of the local pubs. After putting on my necklace, I went into the pub. There was about 30 or so individuals, only 5 or 6 girls. I started chatting with one of the Mexican girl that was talking to another dude, a science high school teacher. I went up to her and said you look latino, I always want to learn Spanish. She said it is beautiful language, I agreed and turn to the guy to tell him I being all over South America and hope I can someday to find the time to learn the language. The girl told me she is from Mexico and work here in Canada as engineer. I told her that she must be smart, have more children, these days only stupid people are having kids and they will eventually take over the world. They both laughed. She asked me about my travel show, I told both of them to name a country, I took out my phone to show them episode after episode of my travel show featuring different South American countries. In the end, I told both of them to reach out to me if they got questions about my travel, that dude subscribed to my YouTube channel, while the girl added me on to her IG. I took a closer look later and saw that she had a lot of photos with some Latino guys, assume it is her boyfriend. But I am not discouraged, I am going to message her tomorrow and tell her that it was so nice meeting and see if she is up for coffee.

So, I am getting better getting my ass out of the door... but now it's time to game up, really learn the Mystery Method materials, work on the clothing, peacocks. Going out is great, but I think I have to spend at least a hour a day reading up and doing some practice with materials inside. There is no point to be comfortable talking to women but not really knowing what to say. I used to know the materials by heart, but that was ten years ago.

My plan now is continue to finish book, continue to go out, then break the game into parts, practice A1, A2..., one week, then move on to B1, B2... another week. I rather master every step than having weak foundation.

If anyone is in Toronto, want to sarge with me... hit me up on the PM!

[thirtynine]

On Friday, I messaged the Mexican girl from Thursday to tell that I didn't have a chance to say goodbye at the language exchange. She messaged me back and say hit was nice meeting me and wish me a great weekend. About couples of hours later, I messaged her that there is night market for Asian food in North York and if she is interested, I'll pick her up. No response. I understand that I only briefly meet up, so she didn't invested anything in me. But I am still proud that I was able to connect her on Instagram. I got off work and after a hour of rest and eating, I went out to buy some accessories. Sadly, all the secondhand stores are closed early. Follow by going up to the night market, there was quite a lot of people there. One of my friend happen to own a dance studio who is one of the main sponsors with a booth. I went up to see if she is there to say hi. She is not, however it is three staff members there, one of them is from Romania, a dance teacher, very hot, my target. I intentionally ignore her, to talk the older Ecuador girl, who is a lawyer and immigration consultant. I ask her about her ascent, she is Spanish, I ask which country, Ecuador she answered. I told her I missed her country and she was surprised I went there. I show her the episode I did there and she was blow away. The cuter Romanian girl now wants in and wants to have Instagram, I also asked her where she is from, then I told her that I love the food in her country and showed her my episode featuring her country. She was over the moon! I told them they can ask me anything if they needed plan a vacation. The older girl right away took a selfie with me and send it to the owner of the studio who happens to be on the stage. We got connected on Instagram. As for the cuter girl, from her social media, she is married to her dance partner. I chatted for couples minutes, I told them if I come to the studio, I'll pay since it's not easy to start a business like a dance studio, plus my friend has a big mortgage on the commercial property who house the dance studio. They asked me if I work full time on the travel show, I told them I also work at one of the big five banks in Canada, I feel bad for a lot of customer who still have mortgage. I also slip in that I am grateful and lucky, among the eight properties, I only have 2 mortgage with less than $500K owing, therefore I haven't raise my rent in almost three years. Somewhat of DHV. The Ecuadorian girl messaged me to tell me it was nice meeting me, I messaged her back saying that it was really meeting her too, we should have coffee soon and have a wonderful weekend. I guess I'll follow up with her another time. I stay put in the night market for another 45 minutes or so, chatting up multiple sets. End of the night, I dropped by the Starbucks, there was cute Indian girl working as cashier, I thank her for closing late. She told that she is IT student who wanted job and applied to one of competitor banks as IT specialist, after getting rejected from my bank due to lack of experience. She is now thinking about applying as teller. I told her to not waste time, since teller don't make anything and won't get her get into IT department. She can consider becoming teller part time while finishing up her studies, then do a internship as internal candidate. Her eyes lit up. I told her to send me a email with her resume and I'll see what I can do. It was almost mid-night and went home. I wanted to finish reading as much as possible the book Revelation, now half way done.

I messaged Mystery in the morning to tell him that I re-reviewing his materials again, if he likes to do a updated to his original materials, I'll help for free. No response, but he did read it. No big deal, I am sure he is busy guy, he always answers my messages. Today, I went out again, first to buy accessories. I am pretty happy I was able to pick up some good stuff from two secondhand shops, as well a street market on Bloor Street this weekend. I got three neckless, couples of rings, and a bracelet. My only regret today is I didn't approach one of the really cute girl went pass and I had to come home early because of rain.

Tonight, I have finally start taking down some notes for the Mystery Method... brought back lots of memories. I also start listen to his and Ross Jeffries materials while driving. My goal for this upcoming week:
- to continue going out
- start wearing accessories no matter where I go, including work
- finish and practice A1, A2

The search for sarge buddy continues!

[thirtynine]

For now, I am sure everyone know I am not a keyboard junkie, I rather be out than in. Sunday was a bad day, my mother came over to my condo and broke my table after I told her that I will not get married and have children unless I find someone else I like. It's no longer the dark ages where match making are done by parents. I ended up for few hours at IKEA to pickup a new one. I came home and put it together before taking a nap, I still had a headache and I think my mother made it worst. I woke up around 6:30 pm and headed to a comedy bar, there was jam pack show on Sunday, there was no cover. Since I didn't talk during the show, I brought myself a drink and ask bartender where she is from, "Ukraine", I proceed by showing her my travel show featuring Ukraine and it brought her to tears. I told her that I hope Ukraine will win and I can revisit that amazing country again to showcase of it. During the break, I also chat up couples of girls, nothing much happens, but starting to get more and more comfortable in approaching. I wasn't ready to come home, as I passing by a ice-cream store along the home, I saw there is a long ass lineup. I said, damn, this is a good opportunity to chat up some girls. I parked my car, then walk up and ask the two set, "this is place good? this is a long line up, is it worth the wait?", one of them replied that with such long lineup it must be good. I told them I used to own a ice-cream and therefore I have a high standard for ice-cream. I ask them where they are from, from Kenya one of them asked. I told them I being to most of the African countries, but not Kenya due to insurance issues. I ask them to guess which countries I being to in a fun way, they failed so I show them few episodes of my travel show film in Africa, including Morocco and Egypt. They asked me if I being to Palestine, to their surprise I show them that episode. I also them them that I am support of Palestinian rights, we carry on back and forward, good conversation for over 20 minutes before getting my ice-cream. Very, very engaging. I ended the night by coming home and continue to finish up Revelation. I am pretty much 80% completed!

Monday evening, I went out once again, first on the list, brought few more accessories, two rings and one neckless from Winners. Very happy, now I can switch around. While shopping, I saw two set was shopping for jewelries as well. I said, "I am complaining right now that my men's right is being violated, everything here is for women", they laughed. I ended asking for their opinions of accessories before buying. I went home and went across the community centre across from my condo, there seems to always have sporting events, lots of cute women too. So I might ended playing some sports this week.

After coming home, I ended chatting up with one of the cute runway models that walked in my show two years ago, she was 18 then, and 20 now. We talked a lot, lots of jokes and so on. I am trying to practice and engaged in a long conversation, well... ended chatting for three hours until 1:00 am. She wanted to chat again soon, I build a lot of comfort, now escalate to something sexual.

One of the biggest issues I am facing right now is time, I really wanted to finish reading and taking note on Mystery Method and Speed Seduction... but I beginning loving going out. I may have to start dividing up, nights that I stay in and nights I am out. So wish me luck... I know this might not be a lot, but for me with weak social circle, it's a big step to going out to play the game.

[thirtynine]

On Tuesday, I finally went over the Fort York Community Centre and sign up for volleyball, I have to be there at 6:30 pm to sign up and come back at 8:00 pm. I start talking with staff, asking questions with other people waiting, both guys and girls to get into talkative mode. Eventually, I saw a cute girl and intentionally waited until she line up, so I can line up behind her. I ask if this is for volleyball, she said yes. I notice she has a Spanish accent, I asked if she is from Latin America, she said she was from Colombia. I told her, I have filmed travel show all over the world, but not Colombia and told her inspire me. She took out her phone and saw me some beautiful places, I told her we have talk more about it. We exchanged Instagram, she told me that she likes Mexican food. After the game, I send a nice message saying it was nice meeting her and let me know when she is free and I can make a reservation for Mexican places that I have in mind. In the morning, she reply saying it was nice meeting me, but didn't mention anything about us going out. I message her back couples of hours later asking when she is free. No response. I guess there was not enough rapport, she is not invested in our interaction. Lesson learned, but time to build. Also, I shouldn't sit in the benches when I am off alone, should try to interact more with other players when I am off the court.

Today, I finally finished the Revelation book. I am going to start taking notes on Speed Seduction, in fact I stopped myself from going out because I just can't find time to do the course work given I am always in the field. Anyways, I decided to go a park and after reading the first chapters of introduction of SS material, I rode some round with my bike until I saw a open bar on Harbourfront. There was a set of cute girl with the guys, I open them up by asking what is this place. It is already 10:30 pm on Wednesday and still packed.

One girl Shannon chat me up and said this is just outing, I said the drinks must be good here. Same with the company. I asked didn't she needed to work the next day. She told me she is from Barrie, I told her I brought a place in Barrie, only place that housing price is reasonable and I can make a profit from rent.

She said she works at beauty clinic, I joke to her that I have TV show and my boss will so happy for me get a youthful face for higher rating. I DHV myself by show different seasons of my show. She said she will take care of me, free promo for them, haha! I told her so not fast... she then show me before and after... bababa... eventually our conservation lead to her failure in men, she said she being with a Irish dude for four years, he didn't want children. She want a child so bad, now she is dating a lot of guys.

Given the opportunity, I told her to take out her hands, I ended doing a Speed Seduction palm reading on her. I told her that because was hurt so bad in the past, she build the wall around her, keep the pain out but also leaving the opportunity out for someone who is different, might not necessary type she will date. She was shocked. I continued, her fear of being hurt also prevent her to looking pass someone surface and seeing the beauty within. She is also at fault for having a list, what she think she want from a men, but these are the same men that hurt her the most. She was speechless. Lastly, I told her maybe she is a good person, but her she keeps a lot of thoughts inside, she sometimes reherhal a situation in her mind, then blow everything out of portion until she exploded making other people think she is a bitch. Getting the wrong way. I continued, she can be a bitch sometimes, and laugh. All this time, she was touching me, good sigh. After 15 minutes, we parted ways after exchanging contact on IG.

It was a good night, I am starting to be better and better at opening. Now, I really need to perhaps take a break couples times of week to learn the materials from SS and MM.

[thirtynine]

P.S. I realized, I needed to look people right in the eyes, talk slower... things I needed to improve!

[thirtynine]

I should post little more to keep track of my progress, but I simply too busy going out the field and playing the game... I am absolutely love it! So last Friday, I had a BBQ with group of friends, I ask my friend to do the invite and I'll focus on the organizing, a lot of turn out. While setting up the BBQ, I was there was a cute Russian girl who was working in that patio area, I told her that she can stay for BBQ, but she insist she got work to do. I told her that's crazy, working at Friday night should be illegal. She told me that she is a Instagram influencer, I told too I am YouTuber, but weekend is for enjoying with friend and family. So I guess my friend acted as social proof, after seeing my YouTube channel, we exchanged Instagram. Next morning, she written to me that she wanted to hang out when I get another events, I told her to me know when is free and we'll have lunch. I work downstairs at a bank.

Saturday, I went out on street festival, my mood was down but I still give myself credit for at least leaving the house. Boy I wish I got a wingman, so I went home at continue to read Mystery Method, video set 2. Still down to learn A1/A2/A3. I must force myself to stay home to learn it. Sunday, I went to a fashion model meet and greet event as invited, one of the good friend make up artist started talking to me about New York Fashion Week, great DHV in front of models. Today, I realized there was message request from model, hoping we can meet up. I responded with saying she is free to contact me anytime when she comes near where I lived.

Monday, went out at night again, this time to read at the waterfront. Guess what, I went a 20 year, super sweet girls, spoken to her for over 30 minutes, during this time I used time constraint to exit, work so well. She almost didn't want me to leave, talking about family value and grateful to my parent who raise with almost nothing. She has similar history from the Philippines. In the morning, got message from her that it faith we met, she want to see me again. Wow, this is really cool!

Tuesday night, tried to read Speed Seduction, I'll be honest, I forgot that I did, but I didn't stay home. I read the materials somewhere, but couldn't finish much. I simply love the infield.

Today, I invited a potential Wingman to language exchange, this dude is brown named DS, works in IT. I told him, I want someone who can commit going out. I open one set, we chat about being non-materialistic, travel show and how I was enlighten by people with less. She was hooked, she got bf... but who cares. I asked her about her life, she went on and on, getting invested in her emotion in me, I used connection pattern on her. Wow, hooked. I brought my buddy DS in, he listen in and after exchange instagram, chat for another 15 minutes until I exited to let her know that I needed to pay for my parking. DS is surprised and seems to be commit, I told him, he needed to read Speed Seduction and Mystery Method to be on the same page with me. So far I progress quite a lot. Almost every other day, I spent no less than 30 minutes with a girl on the phone and start speaking SLOWER.

[JackZero]

Good job so far. You are connecting with women. I just hope to see you push past the initial meets soon.

[thirtynine]

It has being almost two weeks since I posted my journey. But is not because I didn't do anything, I simply don't have time to post. Here is the progress:
1. I went on a date with Russian girl that I met at my BBQ, I invited her the following week to come down and grill some chicken in the outdoor BBQ. We ended chatting for 3 hours. Apparently, she used to have a boyfriend that is 14 years older.
2. I went on out on a somewhat date with a 20 year Asian girl, her cousin tagged along, third wheel. I think she is just nervous, because she never had a boyfriend her life, her cousin who is starting grade 12 had some horror stories regarding her first boyfriend.
3. I finally finished A1/A2/A3, asked my wingmen to get his ass done with the reading. I am waiting for club game.
4. I met up with my wingwomen who came over for dinner, she agreed to hang out and help me out... by the way, she is pretty cute.

More journey to come!